the morality in social interactions

 i really hate beating around the bush to get to the center of a conversation. not even just conversation, in friendship. as much as i love the time spent with people i'd rather get to the point so we can have more fun together. 

other problems i have are relatability and closeness. rarely do i meet someone with similar problems, and now, finally faced with someone who does, i cower behind "not knowing them enough"? i hate having this feeling of being unable to help people. ive been there, ive been the one who walked away, or even abandonned, but in seeing someone facing the same issue i cant try to help? i just feel like it would be wrong, like i have to be close to someone to help. thats why im making this post in the first place. it feels like theres too many implications behind my words or actions, and that acting would lead to problems. like, what if my advice isnt actually good? what if theres truly no advice to begin with? i havent even fully fixed my problems, so how could anyone expect me to solve someone elses? and would my words truly, ever help, or make it worse?

i think in these questions, youd have to look at yourself. if someone asked me about how lonely i feel sometimes, would i break down and run away, or seek solace in them? would i be open to someone whos gone through what i have, or simply think they're lying? or not truly the same? i dont think i could ever bring myself to hate someone who has been through what i did. 

maybe when it comes to friendship, its truly just about being there and talking a lot. these were thoughts i had while laying down, staring at the ceiling and blasting music into my ears. bed thoughts 2 coming sometime later