Philosophical questions 2

1. + Do you think people know you? 
2. Are we defined by how a person knows us or how we act? What makes you think so?
3. What makes you so far from being satisfied? Do you take it as a good thing?
4. What was your most recent reel that got a laugh out of you? Why?
5. Show/movie you recently cried to?
6. */////// < cat wrote this say hi
7. What is a piece of media you specifically stay away from? (When I refer to media, like anything online ever. Movies, shows, videos, music, etc)
8. What's an embarrassing piece of media you enjoyed as a child? Why is it embarrassing now?
9. Do you interpret something one way that others may see differently?
10. If someone had to die in this friend group, who would die?
11. How many apples tall are you? 
12. What about tomato sauce packets? The ones from mcdonalds? How many tomato sauce packets tall are you
13. Is three apples too much or does greed not consume us?
14. What job would you do if you could immediately get it
15. What part of your life do you wish you could have skipped? What made it so bad and why?
16. If you were to host a themed party, what would it be? 
17. Would you rather wait for yourself to be perfect to find love, or risk it and date despite not feeling completed as a person?
18. At what point do you become a complete person? What is your "complete"?
19. Would you rather have unlimited bacon, but no games. Or, unlimited games, games, but no games. 
20. How do you percieve luck?
21. Would you put a framed photo of me on your desk?
22. Are you aware that its right behind you? Or are you not in a generic horror?
23. Would you love me if i was a stink bug?
24. Who is most likely to pass out at the next hangout?
25. Are you a hat person? What makes you believe hats fit you?

I wanna make music

 I was reminded that I want to make music, by my last post, tonight at nivara, and you people. There are two albums (maybe) that I would like to do if I ever find the skill, motivation and money to do so. 

This first one has a lot of different names cause I can't decide what to write it as. The simplest one would be "Nothing matters" and before I get into this one, I'd love to give some background. 

My main friends throughout majority of my life were quite depressed. Everyone, all the time. It kind of spread to me, but their view of the world never clicked with me. They always believed "Nothing matters" and that we're all "Specks of dust, barely an atom of sand in the huge universe" but that never fit me. To me, we are all the only ones capable of experiencing the universe. These guys, despite their misery, did know that they didn't truly feel that way. If they did, they'd kill themselves. If life truly mattered they wouldn't truly care. It was a coping mechanism. But I still want to explore that view.

Nothing Matters

So this would definitely be a rock album, but maybe I don't want to stick to that. I could see where I could branch off, mainy because of how each song would be made. I would love for each of them to potray a different view on "Nothing matters" such as the opposite view, or other interpretations, such as the happy and sad sides of this, and how you can take this view on the world. I want the music to sound like something you'd listen to if you were feeling that world view. All of the song titles would basically be like finishing the sentence. It isn't "Nothing Matters." Its more of "Nothing Matters..." kind of like when the pawn... BUT ANYWAYS it would be so cool to make

Backseat Sax

This one I've thought more on. As you can tell, it would be jazz. I love jazz, but god is it hard. Its so dynamic and it moves and flows, its the reason why it never sticks in your head, because it barely repeats. Anyways, this album would be all about love. All the love I've ever experienced. Perhaps each song based on a person. Some of them can even be sang, I wouldn't mind. Main problem is I haven't had enough experience to write something like this. Like I only have about two actual songs and two general concepts/aspects of love to note on, such as the idea of not needing a lover and (okay now its three just thought of one) the idea of needing a lover AND the past crushes basically molded together.

IDK if this is cringy but can you hate every song is about love and broken hearts so I'm cooler than you

I can barely stick to my hobbies

 Its true. Also, a cat is here rn so any cat notes STAY. 

So I have SO MANY hobbies that I wanna do. I want to paint. draw, write poems, books, comics, and make music. I also want to continue football and stay healthy, but NOTHING HAS STUCK. So this is a cry for help. 

I'm sitting here, cat in my lap, saxophone sitting behind me, blues playing on the radio, pondering how I can call to you people on how I can fulfill these hobbies. See, we have a lot of time, but for good reason we spend it with eachother on and offline. I WISH I could quit you guys, but without social links I would die. So I'm on my phone often. I scroll about 5-15 minutes every few hours to find reels, which sounds good, but I'm still texting before and after that. I've been on my computer a whole lot less, which im happy about... BUT I HAVE SOME HOBBIES I NEED TO START

First, my body, I'm relatively consistent. My four hours of training per week absoloutely tires me, which is what I'm after in these hobbies. But then comes the problem of tyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyygfccccccccccccccccf going to the gym and going with someone. I NEED to go with someone or else I'll just be bored/feeling lonely. It feels weird going to the gym alone. Besides that I'm relatively fine in my health besides eating too much... But i workout so its fine!!

Second, music. God I love it, but how the hell will I do anything with it? My rhythm is slowly coming back to me, but really, I don't know what to do with it. I barely understand music theory, I'm still confused on all the divisions and quarters and stuff, I'm no mathematician.  Everyone who plays now have been playing since they were young, which is my main excuse, but is it really servicable? Should I truly give up because someone else got an early start? No, but then comes the next point. I have so many instruments I want to learn, to the level that I know im gonna be so broke. I want to learn the flute, guitar, even some drums, the banjo because why not, and the harmonica sounds funny. I want to make jazz, some form of alternative rock, maybe even jazz fusion cause I can't decide. Theres too many things I like.

Third, art. God I love art. But it is so hard to get into. Everything I have in my brain never comes out how I want it, and nothing can ever make what I want besides me, so I HAVE to get into art to make what I want. And I mean all kinds of art. Painting, drawing, photography, videos, even movies. I just want make something in it all. Writing goes into this a little, too, but like as a part of these hobbies, not by itself. Kinda tried being an author, not my style.

SO HOW DO WE (YES WE) ACCOMPLISH OUR GOALS? Motivation is a currency we all must earn. How? Idk it usually comes to me after laying in bed long enough. But other things, such as experiencing this art ourselves through others, whether they are friends or someone random at the side of the street. This motivation simply comes to us by trying things out. But skill? Sadly isn't instant. I wish it were, because if it were, I would have never stopped drawing. Maybe we're all too self concious of being bad, believing we're already "too old" to be bad at something. Sure there are kids that are better than us at our hobbies, but who cares? We have to get into what we like. I feel like I'll be an empty old man if I don't achieve what I want. 

OH also money is super important so get a job